What you did was evil, but it is not always evil to kill life. as long as you respect life, life can be killed. But if you disrespect life, it cannot be killed. murder is disrespectful to life, and you murdered the fellow brother. I sincerely regret for myself killing insects in the past. ihate myself for it. but also, plants are sentient too and must not be murdered. we can conlude what sentience is and what has it by using science and science proves that humans, animals, plants, and quantum particles all have the same level of sentience.
here is something i wrote up one time: "90.It is Better to Let a Million Wicked Die Than to Let One Righteous Die
An important question comes along: if you have a group of people in danger, and you have to save some, but not others, who should you save? The answer is you should save whoever is the most righteous of them all. I ask you: take two men in danger of dying: one is wicked and one is righteous. Which one should be saved? For they are both one person; how then should you choose? Remember before in the plane example I showed how if your plane’s engine went out, and thus you were forced to choose where the impact would be in your vicinity, if there were people inhabited everywhere in your vicinity, if you knew nothing about the people, you would be obligated to kill the least number of people? And why is that the obligation? Because I showed how it is evil to choose greater evil rather than a lesser evil. And so, in the case of the righteous and the wicked man, choosing the wicked man rather than the righteous man would be choosing greater evil to happen, which as I prove in this book, is very evil. And so, then, now, let’s ask once again, on this same principle: if you were in the control tower that had limited control of a bomb, and you were unable to deactivate the bomb, if the system was programmed so that if no specification was entered into the control tower’s system, then the bomb would kill both parties, but if you choose to set in advance one party or the other by entering that party into the system, at the time the bomb was set to go off; if thus your selection does not cause any deaths, but is the means of saving lives, and there are two parties: one party with one trillion evil male children, and one righteous elderly woman who is blind, deaf, and paralyzed, which of the two parties should you save? The answer is that you should save the elderly woman, because she is righteous. For if you save the one trillion evil children, you have chosen an inconceivable amount of evil to exist; very evil indeed. But if you choose the one righteous woman, you have chosen a righteous woman, and as such, no evil will come from her life. And so what of animals and plants? If you had to choose between saving one righteous weed or saving one trillion wicked humans, which should you choose? The answer is you should save the weed and not the humans; for on the same principle as previously discussed, righteousness is preferable to wickedness. And furthermore, plants and animals are equal to humans except in that we can kill them for non-punishment reason, and thus, while we are obligated to kill animals and plants for the sake of humans if it is for an acceptable end, we are obligated to not kill them if it is not for an acceptable end, as I will soon prove a little later in this book. But what if both parties involved are righteous? If both parties involved are righteous, then what should be chosen is whichever will lead to the least evil. Sometimes certain leaders should be chosen over the masses, because the masses are spiritually inadequate to take over the role of that leader. And other times the masses should be chosen instead of the leaders because the masses will lead to a greater spiritual influence of righteousness than would be if the leaders had been chosen instead. And what if you do not know anything about the people involved? At that point, you should then choose based on quantity; as in, choose in such a way so that the least number of individuals die. But some will contest this saying is it unjust and unfair to the wicked, and that it is better to save the wicked so that they may be saved. But this is not so, for do you really think saving the wicked will lead to more people being saved? If you save the wicked rather than the righteous, all the saved that would have been brought about by that righteous one would not be saved, and if you save the wicked rather than the righteous, how many more will not be saved due to the influence of that evil one? It is quite evident thus that it is morally obligatory and logically preferable to save the righteous rather than the unrighteous."