Olivia
2009-07-17 01:44:52 UTC
today, i went to bed at 6:30 A.M.
i lay down but thers to many thoughts, and then i decide to get up an do something like this.
but then i just except it.
i mean, sometimes im upset that its day light.
when i think about it, i come to the conclusion that it is only when the sun finally rises that i have no trouble sleeping.
not because im finally tired, but ive convinced my brain that after that, its all over.
and im not gonna lie i like staying up all night because its so peaceful but sometimes its lonely.
but sometimes even if i get only like 3 hours in of sleep for a day .
i can do it all over again.
because my mind is constantly going.
i realize now that i have all these automatic negative thoughts,
like i tel myself you wont be able to sleep.
im starting to think i have add and a cluster of anxiety disorders.
so!*
how is it possible to create a clear mind.
to be at peace with who i am - cheesy