My day to day life has become monotonous,i don't see the meaning in waking up going to work and coming home and playing video games and drinking then going to sleep just to wake up and repeat it day after day. its not like i have a bad life,but is this really how its going to be for the rest of my life? i want to find a purpose in life, i want to do something that has meaning. I want to do something that is constantly changing. i want to wake up not knowing how the day will go. is this selfish or unrealistic? So if anyone here understands how i feel or knows a way to accomplish this, or already has,tell me what it is,is there anyone who knows how i can start making a difference,anywhere anything.