But sometimes I feel deja vu a lot.
I don't think I have ever told you this but sometimes I feel like this world isn't real it is fake like we are in a computer world or even possibly if there are multiple different universes.
I feel like I have Derealisation Disorder a mental condition where you feel disconnected form your reality. It s different to escaping from the world like you do me I feel like when living life it doesn't feel like a reality.
For example at school sometimes I will feel like I have been through all this before when I first started at my new school it just felt weird and strange and unnatural what I mean is I felt like I already done this all before and lived this life. I feel this with everything I feel lots of deja vu even for things that haven't happened it's like there really is an alternate universe or lots of alternate universes with different me's and I feel like I have some sort of contact with them.
This is what dreams have always felt like to me a connection between you and world's that exist across time and space that you have been to before have you ever noticed in some dreams something might seem familiar even if you have never seen it or done it before?
Well yeah.
So sorry for going deep man but it's true sometimes I feel deja vu that isn't there.
But I can honestly say I believe we already looked that anime up at least once before but you probably forgot about it and the reason you were so excited with seeing it again was because you remembered that you liked it already without even realizing.
No but Curtis these deja vu feelings for me are not normal or healthy.
I actually feel like this world isn't real or there has to be other universes where things happen differently across time and space.
Even with certain people I just feel very strange.
I already feel like what's going to happen has already happened.
I feel a strange feeling of deja vu even when there is none.
Even when I was first talking to some people I felt like I already knew this guy/girl my whole life same with any other people.
It is not just my imagination either I have this strong feeling inside me that says in one universe me and a certain person are in love and happy together in other universes things will have turned out differently.
This is why I have belief in fate and destiny it seems like sometimes things that happen just feel like they already happened and already worked out.
I'm not saying I can predict the future, or the past, it's just I've always had this weird belief inside.
I know how it feels then, man.
This world seems so fake to me, artificial.
Everything seems programmed.
You just look at other people and their lives in this world.
It all feels so programmed and too set.
Nothing feels 'natural' or 'real'.
It's like we are in the matrix or something a computer world.
Or just that there are hundreds of different universes and they were all created by a higher power.
But don't you get what I MEAN, curtis?
Don't you sense it, don't you FEEL it?
And I honestly feel that, deep in my mind, there's some sort of connection we all have with ourselves in alternate universes.
I can't help but imagine great things.
I might think of an aline planet. I'll feel like I've BEEN there, I feel some connection even though I've never been.
I feel like I am another person there.
Or other planets or other times in history or even other creatures, aliens, etc.
It's not just that I have a very strong imagination - I just legitimately feel like deep inside us all we have the ability to connect with and even communicate with the alternate universes.
These messages might be dreams.
Dreams are literally the messages we send back and forth to each other, or taking us to the other world's temporarily.
I sound like a madman right now, but seriously...
Please tell me: Am I mad, or do you actually agree with me?
Science has not even proven what dreams are or why we have them yet.
Science has not proven what the imagination is, and what exactly causes it or what it means.
I feel like our imaginations are literally the memories of the alternate universes.
And all the tv shows, video games and stuff are all the alternate universes made into games and tv shows and stuff.
I'm not saying tv shows are real or true or anything though.
What I mean is, if you imagine something in your head, I feel like it's a memory of an alternate universe or a connection.
People use these memories to create things like tv shows and video games and stuff. Video games aren't true but might be someone who has used their memories to put it into a game.
Because, really.
Just think about it.
Why do we have imagination, creativity, ideas, dreams, etc.
Because we are smart? No, that can't just be it. That's an idiot's way of saying it.
'We are smart so we can think of smart things duh yeah'.
because thats what i have deja vu moments that arent actually real hm well im more worried about deja vu moments that didnt actually happen but feel like they did which is what i feel sometimes remmeber the whole 'reality/universe might be fake' feeling i said i get
That's what I mean. For you it is predict the future. But for me it's a little different. For me it's like I might be in a situation i've actually never been in, in the present but I get weird thoughts that it's all familiar and I've been through it all before.
Like when I started at my new school this year it wasn't new or refreshing at all it was a tiny bit at the beginning but by the end of my first week I started to feel I have already been to this school before that I have already lived this and met these people, etc.
With certain people I felt the strange feeling like 'This person is strangely familiar' it actually feels like I knew they existed before I met them. You just have thoughts/dreams of the future and then they come true. Me, I live my life like normal but get this weird thought that it has already all been done before.
It's not deja vu either, it's actually like some connection to a previous or alternate life. Remember how I said alternate universes.
It might even be like Bioshock Infinite. Remember Bioshock the steampunk game i have. In the game there are alternate universes and it turns out the story is not the first time it has happened. Everything that happens in the story repeats over and over again. When you first play the game it turns out to be your 207th time playing through or something like that. As in you've lived it all already.
I honestly feel like that. Like I've lived possibly even my entire life and it is an always repeating process and each time is different but the connection is still always there... I've already went to Harristown High school and already graduated, I already lived out my adult life and died. It has repeated and is happening again and this is where I am up to.
I already met certain people. In some alternate universes they might have hated me, in others we just never talked, in others we talk but then dont be friends after and forget each other, in some we remain good friends, in some we actually end up dating and they actually does end up being my girlfriend. I can just feel it. With all people. I can look at someone and think 'We had a connection in one of the previous loops'. This random guy in one of my classes at my school when I first started I looked at him and straight away I felt like I knew him in a previous life...